10/29/2011 w/ Caroline, Amandalynn, Paula, Jess. Downed a Rockstar and I was ready. Vortex, Demon, and Flight Deck in 45min. All before park closes at 530. iHOP for dindin. PUMPKIN PANCAKES. Fuck yeah. Service SUCKED, but food was good. We should be in a food eating contest, ‘cause we finished in like 7 minutes. They would take forever when we’re in a hurry. Car for the goodygood....
Vent sesssssh to Dyl. Telling him about my crazy ass life and how I be slippin’. I’m hella slippin’ tho. Time is rushing right past me and I don’t even notice. Losing track of days and losing track of life. Fuck meeee.
show me your teeth.: She’s got a soft heart,... →
-sarcasticbitch: She’s got a soft heart, strong surface. She’s well-grounded in God, family, and friends. She’s got voluptuous lips and a nice smile to go with it. A bit of a broken past but it’s given her character. She dances when nobody’s around and and moves in her own way. She thinks the most abstract…
Doubts are really the worst. It’s such a confusing emotion. Do you leave things as is or let it go and find something new? Is it worth leaving and starting anew? Or do you stick it out, put your faith in it and hope for the best? The questions the questions.. thanks Dylan.
Dear Mommy, We’re getting along now. I hope this lasts. I guess we both needed that reality check. I cried ‘till I slept and I woke up crying again. Literally cried my eyes out, but I learned from it. It was a slap in the face, but I guess it was well deserved. All I can say, is that even though we don’t agree all the time, I’m learning to see where you’re coming...
"I'm trying to relieve you" LMFAO.
Dyl: It's what I do best. ;)
Me: It's not something you should be proud of.
Dyl: It helps relieve your stress tho!
Me: Verbally abusing me shouldn't relieve stress.
Dyl: You know cussing me out relieves your stress.
Me: I think you need to find other ways to relieve your stress. Haha, I hear sex, drugs, and alcohol do wonders.
Dyl: Well, I'm trying to relieve you! Admit it, I know how to relax you breeeh.
Pumpkin Patch, Pumpkins, and Pumpkin Pie.
October 23, 2012 Woke up and got ready. I actually took my time to look nice! But plans changed, so then my sister and I decided to go to the Pumpkin Patch and get pie! (: That place has so much sentimental value, it’s still the same from when I was like four. We used to go EVERY year, but the last time I was able to go was freshman year, because it used to always coincide with HC. However,...
Those 2 half an hour classes that I teach absolutely make my day. (: They’re the cutest kids ever. And so talkative and fun to play with. And they just love interacting with me and ask for hugs and miss me. It’s just so heart-warming. It makes me look forward to class that whole cold morning.
Even tho, I said, I wasn’t going to leave my house until my Personal Statement was done, today was worth it. And technically, I didn’t leave my house because babe came over. Haha, but I didn’t get anything done. BUT, I finally got that chill day I’ve been asking for since September started. I got a day, to kick back in a baggy shirt and sweats, sit on my lazy butt, and...
I’m tired of all this crap. Tables turned tho. This time, I stuck up for my mom and she stuck up for me. ‘cause that shit you pulled was just ridic. I don’t ask FOR SHIT. No one does, and when we do it’s because we absolutely need it. We’re not spending your money at whim. I WORK for my shit, ‘cause you don’t give money. I pay for insurance, phone, and...
I can’t wait for this month to be over. I’ve missed you.
I lure creeps.
As Dylan said, the random ass shit is more memorable than the actual interview. Anyways, I got to my interview 10min early, and I’m sitting and this RANDOM OLD GUY starts smiling and staring at me. EWWW. And he’s motioning to me, like “Hey” and wants to buy me a drink and shit with him and shit. And okay, even if I looked like 20, he was still a good 30 years older than...
Not worth it.
I used that voice. The voice when I talk to strangers, when I’m being fake and attempting to be calm. I used a passive voice. I tried not to give a shit. And I held off for a long time. Then like always, I started crying. I would have been fine, but you made me feel like I was the worst person in the world. I was the bad guy, as always.
Hm. Maybe, I’m going about this wrong. Maybe instead of writing about who I am and trying to fit everything about me, maybe I should focus on one thing about me. Just one thing. I should break it down.
Sweaters, NYU, Sky Terrace.
City day. Met up with Stevie! Missed that girl. Shopping time + catchup on life. Urban + H&M- Quote of the day: I’m trying to find a knit sweater, you know the kind with the whole at the bottom. Girl, they all have holes at the bottom, it’s called the opening. The best. Went to 21; Met up with Dylan, he finally got his lazy ass out of bed! I bought a sweater. Then off to...
I swear, if you looked through my head right now, you’d think I’m a terrible person. So, I’ll keep it inside and not say anything. Everything is fine, right?
pobregato: I wish someone could just tell me if this is going to be worth it or a waste of my time.
I just need you to be supportive and considerate. That is all.
Worst Dream Ever.
I’ve never had a dream so realistic and emotional. I felt everything. Sleep is usually my escape from my problems, but this time, my problems attacked me. I was scared shitless. My worst fear was brought out, and the scary part is, my dream was realistic. I know it’s going to happen, or is happening. It was a reality check. I rarely dream, but when I do, they mean something. I...
I just want ONE day this month to not worry, stress, or have anything to do. I want to lay in bed, spend my day in sweats, maybe pop in a movie and chill. And getting time to sit down and eat everyday would be nice too. I would like to have a meal where I’m not standing up trying get shit done.
I can't have distractions right now.
Passionate. A teacher. A reformer. Passionate. Independent. Curious. Authentic. Selfless. Ethical. A Perfectionist. Now how do I make a creative story with all that?
Personal Essays suck. I hate talking about myself....
Man, I was in crankypants mood today! Haha, did not want to be at school at all just because it was a Monday. And usually Mondays don’t bother me, but the fact that I had an amazing weekend (yknow minus SATs) and then had to go to school SUCKED. Did not want to be there. Not to mention, getting scolded from Ms.D for not FUCKING REASON (not my fault you’re deaf) and getting a reality...
Theme of the Day: Earth Loving.
So, I’ve been really excited about today since Dylan and I set a date. I’ve been looking forward to October 2 for a while. I was excited to see places in SF I’ve never been to and do new things, instead of the usual. Today was a first time for everything. SF is amazing. Got dropped off at Dylan’s house, met his dad, and we were off to GG park. GG Park- Blue Grass Music...
Girls Night Out, SATs, and Swings.
Friday September 31, 2011 Watched 50/50 with Melanie and Caroline! I like that movie(: Joseph Gordon Levitt tho<3 UNF. So cute. The movie was like a roller coaster. So cute, funny, and sad. I nailed that cunt! Other memorable moments: Melanie and her bra. Caroline and Melanie tearing up. All of us being angry at the bitch girlfriend. Saturday October 1, 2011 SATs are probably the most...